Today I had my first ever tennis lesson.
When I was a kid there were certain hobbies I dreamt about doing, but I did not do, because my parents had no money.
One of them was tennis, the other horse riding.
As I was growing into an adult I forgot about all those things and concentrated on building a career. There was no time for hobbies.
I remember when I discovered reformer Pilates about 4 years ago, it became my very first hobby. Then I added diving to it. After some time I thought that I wanted to try climbing as I always found it fascinating yet scary due to my fear of heights. Last summer when I was in Morocco I tried horse riding for the first time and when I went back to Lithuania I took classes to learn how it is done properly. At that time I thought; well that’s great, I’m living my childhood dreams and thought about tennis too. However, there wasn’t enough time for me to even get one class before I had to leave and during winter I was so concentrated on buying an apartment I stopped all the hobbies.
So fast forward to today. I had my first class and I loved it. I will do it again.
You might be reading it and thinking; what so special about it all. I wanted and I’ve done it. But the special part here is, that when I was a child I never thought those activities would be possible for me, I never thought I could even handle them physically. I remember holding a tennis racket when I was a little girl thinking how heavy it was. And it was of course – I was a tiny child back then. That memory stayed with me even when I grew up. Today when I held the racket for the first time as an adult I thought that it was surprisingly light. Emphasis on “surprisingly”. What I am trying to say here. In my memory I believed that tennis is hard, because of my experience as a child and if I would have let that experience define it for me, I would have not tried to pick up a racket again and would have never found out that it is actually light.
Lately I’ve been thinking more and more about Mae West quote : “I’ll try anything once, twice if I like it, three times to make sure.” To me it rings very close to heart, because I feel hungry to experience life, to feel everything there is to feel and to cherish all that completely free of guilt.
I want life to feel like a guilt free desert, a guilt free holiday and a guilt free day off. This way of life – is just like peace, I have to work for it – not just hope for it and it starts with trying.
Cheers with a glass full of free elephant!